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Maybe this time
I don’t think I’ll have kids
Not because I don’t want to
But cause I’ve been burying
Every child
One by one
Every time a man comes around
And asks
“How many ideally?”
They don’t tell you
After you break up
You have to forget the
Names,
Combinations,
Personality traits
They may have had.
The last one and I
Always talked about
having two.
He was an only child
But two felt right
And lived on in my dreams.
The first time it ever happened,
We were both sitting up
In a white bed
While the older one
Read
To the younger one.
My dream felt real.
He’d said,
“We did so good.
I’m so proud of us.”
But it didn’t last.
He had a girlfriend.
And we had no children.
The one I met in sickness,
Not health,
He dismissed the idea,
Calling it
An unecessary expense.
The next one stood outside
The pho restaurant with me,
Talking about how he was saving up
To send his future kids to school
In my town.
How ironic to have spent so much time
Pretending we didn’t have the same goals,
I said years later.
It was easy to imagine that life
With you, he said.
But now I’m old and gray,
I visit their graves once in a while,
Imagined what would have happened,
If they had seen their first car,
First heartbreak,
First step.
But it never happened.
Perhaps I was never meant
To be loved but someone else
But show someone else
How to love
So hard
That they could imagine
A bed with love
And kindness
And grace.
Things I will never know.
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The Barbies… and Allan
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#The best thing about Barbie (2023) is probably Ryan Gosling who method acted too hard
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Adult website and period tracker
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Like music to my ears
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Shorter conservatives: me, me, me.
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NCUTI GATWA on the set of “Barbie”
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“It’s literally impossible to be a woman.
You are so beautiful, and so smart, and it kills me that you don’t think you’re good enough. Like, we have to always be extraordinary, but somehow, we’re always doing it wrong?
You have to be thin, but not too thin, and you can never say you wanna be thin. You have to say you wanna be healthy, but also, you have to BE THIN.
You have to have money, but you can’t ask for money because that’s crass.
You have to be a boss, but you can’t be mean.
You have to lead, but you can’t squash other people’s ideas.
You’re supposed to love being a mother, but don’t talk about your kids all the damn time.
You have to be a career woman, but also, always be looking out for other people.
You have to answer for men’s bad behavior, which is INSANE, but if you point that out, you’re accused of complaining!
You’re supposed to stay pretty for men, but not so pretty that you tempt them too much or that you threaten other women because you’re supposed to be a part of the sisterhood, but ALWAYS STAND OUT and ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL. But never forget that the system is rigged, so find a way to acknowledge that but ALSO, always be grateful!
You have to never get old. Never be rude. Never show off. Never be selfish. Never fall down. Never fail. Never show fear. Never get OUT OF LINE. It’s too hard! It’s too contradictory, and nobody gives you a medal or says ‘thank you!’ And it turns out, in fact, that not only are you doing everything wrong, but also, everything is your fault.
I’m just so tired of watching myself, and every single other woman tie herself into knots, so that people will like us.
And if all of that, is also true for a doll just representing a woman, then I don’t even know.“ -Gloria the barbie movie
this is it. this is exactly it oh my god.
This is the speech. Write it on every goddamn wall out there.
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BARBIE (2023) dir. Greta Gerwig
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s(he’s) bro(ken)
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broad city
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